Sometimes it feels like I don’t but I do. Sometimes it feels better to respond to my reality and sometimes it feels better to ignore reality and to create something else instead. I can respond to any kind of reality I like. Right now I would like to respond to this thought:

“All is well and things are getting better and better. I am getting clearer and clearer about what I want and what I like. And I am getting better and better at allowing myself to be, say and do what I want”

I am grateful for everything that the people in my life have shown me. Everyone has been such a blessing in the way they have shown up for me. Some of them really challenged me and vibrationally dared me to go where I normally don’t go.

They have helped me to let go of control. To let go of trying to control my emotions and behavior towards others – like they needed to be protected from me. They have helped me to fall in love with myself deeper and deeper, even loving, welcoming, appreciating and positively using all of my qualities that were kept hidden in the shadows.

Today I feel more complete than ever – no need to reject any part of me. They all have a way of coming out and showing themselves with perfect timing. It’s not up to me to try and control this.

But I do have control over the thoughts I think, although not always in the same way. Sometimes the momentum that has been built up by my thoughts is just too strong. Then it’s better to just go with it and enjoy the ride as much as I can while surrendering to it.

The more I allow it, the sooner it will pass. Especially anger, rage, and resentment were emotions and qualities that I’d rather keep in the shadows of my being. But then some people came to help me to allow them to come out and play. And it was wonderful. It was so incredibly freeing and life-giving. It was like giving myself and the being within me a hand while saying: “I got you. I will take care of you.” Use whatever aspect of yourself you want right now in order to feel better.

When you feel powerless in some situations, rage can be so useful and space giving. It can help you to create the space to breathe again and to change the situation and train you have been on. It can help you to step on the brake for a moment, so everyone can take a good look at themselves before moving on in some way.

Sometimes I love to step on the gas and sometimes I love to powerfully step on the brakes and to say: “No more of this. THIS is what I want instead. And to totally be ok with that process.

Does this resonate with you? Would you like to share your thoughts on the subject or any experiences that you’ve had with this?

With love,


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Mariëlle Duijndam

Founder of Sparkle Paradise | Unconditional Self-Love Facilitator
Ik ben een spiegel van Onvoorwaardelijke Zelf-Liefde en van nature een krachtige catalyst bij persoonlijke transformatieprocessen. Voor hen die zelf al contact hebben gemaakt met hun eigen goddelijkheid, goedheid en grootsheid, of het sterke verlangen hebben om dit te doen – en hier ook voor open staan, zal het samenzijn ervaren worden als een verademing, ondersteuning en bevestiging op je pad van ontwaken, zelfrealisatie en het shiften naar de volgende dimensie(s).

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