I’ve felt like an alien for a very long time. 

I didn’t understand the people of planet Earth. But I really wanted to. I wanted to fit in. I wanted to learn. I wanted to adapt and get better at becoming social, so I could join others in what they were doing, how they did it and what they seemed to be experiencing. Fun, success, intellectual discussions, social talk, corporate life, family life, friendships…

I’ve been so open to learn from others, to become like them, that I forgot about who I was and what was natural to me. I got used to thinking that it must be me that is the problem. Otherwise, why didn’t it work? It seemed to work for everyone else, but it wasn’t making me happy. It didn’t satisfy me. It felt so empty to me. So irrelevant…

At a young age I started to study the human mind, our non-physical being and the opportunities that arise when they start working together. I also studied the way things were done on planet Earth. I have been amazed in so many ways. I thought everyone knew what I knew. And that everyone would be interested in what I had to say, because of the value of it that was so clear to me. It turned out not to be the case. I was asked to turn it down several times. People didn’t want to hear what I had to say. It even seemed to upset them. And so I thought it was better for me to keep it to myself. My perspectives, my preferred way of living, and my love.

But that is not what Love wants. Every time I was strongly connected to this Love, it wanted to connect with other people. It wanted to spread itself like a virus. It wanted to be expressed, to be shared, given, without needing anything in return. The return was already received by being in this Love and being able to express it and feel it through all of my physical senses. It didn’t have any other desire than that. So incredibly fulfilling… 

Along the way, looking back now, I have spent much more time on trying to live like other people did, than spending time being and flowing within this Stream of Love. It just didn’t seem that important. It seemed to be much more important to try and make a life and a living in the external world, rather than enjoying and sharing the joyful depths of my internal world.

My whole journey up until now has been about remembering again what is important (to me) and what is irrelevant (to me). And about giving myself permission to have these priorities and to start feeling safe again in a world that seems to have completely different priorities.

Right now I can feel that all of this is shifting. No longer do I feel like an outsider who is strange and needs to adapt to others. No, now it’s the other way around. I am beginning to see how many people are opening up to and are searching for this way of being that is so natural to me.

And I know I am not the only one in this. I am not the only one who felt like this when growing up. I’m sure many of you who are reading this can relate. And I know you are also able to feel the tide shifting. Our time has come. Our time to lead the way. To give others the opportunity to tune into – and remember – a completely different way of living. Multidimensional, from the inside out. Instead of the other way around.

If you are with me and feel what I am saying, then you’re very welcome to introduce yourself to me and others below this blog. Let’s have some fun with this!

Much love,


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Mariëlle Duijndam

Founder of Sparkle Paradise | Unconditional Self-Love Facilitator
Ik ben een spiegel van Onvoorwaardelijke Zelf-Liefde en van nature een krachtige catalyst bij persoonlijke transformatieprocessen. Voor hen die zelf al contact hebben gemaakt met hun eigen goddelijkheid, goedheid en grootsheid, of het sterke verlangen hebben om dit te doen – en hier ook voor open staan, zal het samenzijn ervaren worden als een verademing, ondersteuning en bevestiging op je pad van ontwaken, zelfrealisatie en het shiften naar de volgende dimensie(s).

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